The Light-bulb

Last week, Antony was helping me clean out the refrigerator...Yes, I know..I am blessed.  :)  Well, after over a year of not replacing the light-bulb in the refrigerator, he fished around on the top shelf of the cabinet to find...a spare!  Sure enough, it worked perfectly and immediately the change shocked me.  Let's face it.  The difference a light-bulb in a refrigerator makes to a mom is pretty intense.  We practically have a best friend relationship with those things - you love them b/c they take care of the things that are important to you - and sometimes when they are empty you get a bit miffed but you fill her up and you're back on speaking terms.  Well, it has taken me almost a week to get used to the new brightness in my refrigerator.  I actually told Antony that every time I open it, I feel like there's almost something wrong with the refrigerator until I take the second to mentally adjust my thinking to the fact that having the light-bulb operating in the fridge is right and that it's meant to be this way.  It wasn't until a couple days into the fridge transformation that I had the revelation...I was a bit slow on the uptake.  But I suddenly thought, "In what areas of my life have I been living without a light-bulb?  What areas of my life were at one point operating in the light but for some reason or another the light was extinguished?  And instead of taking the time to replace the light, I adjusted and got used to seeing that area of my life from the Darkness' point of view instead of getting the truth that comes only from the Light that is MEANT to be operating there?  Where had I allowed wrongful thinking to take over - covering my sight - giving me only a partial picture, stopping me from living to the full?  Which crevice or corner have I forgotten about, leaving it in the dark and tricking myself into thinking it's no big deal...b/c other light-bulbs in my life are working just fine.  I adjusted to not having that light-bulb to the point that when I finally got my light back, it actually felt weird - almost wrong.  But that's what the darkness does.  If we don't immediately deal with an issue with the truth and light of God's Word, then slowly our eyes (soul) become accustomed to the darkness and we get tricked to the point where the truth almost seems weird.  That's scary.

Also, why did I never take the time to change the bulb?  Over one full year that light-bulb was within my reach and I had the means to make the switch:  to replace darkness with light.  But it all comes down to a choice.  First, I have to ask God to show me what parts of my life have gone dark.  This takes openness and sensitivity to hear Him...humility to admit I am wrong and the courage to make the choice to make the switch.  Changing our thinking comes when the decision to change is verbalized and then commitment becomes internalized.  And unlike Antony making things easy for me and changing the fridge bulb, only I have the power to make the choice to replace the darkness with light in my thoughts, ideas, and actions.   And, OH!  How much better life looks when we are seeing it through the truth that Light brings!

Chicken Tenders approved: Black Bean Soup

Here's a GREAT recipe that will help you get rid of some leftovers and also give the kids some great nutrition and it's DELICIOUS! 

Day ONE

Black beans (cook them as normal).  Add coarsely chopped 1 green pepper, 1 onion, plenty of garlic and a couple peeld zucchini in a mixer and blend until smooth.  Heat cocounut oil in pan and cook for a few minutes.  Add salt, cumin, pepper and dried oregano to taste. Then add to black beans. 

Make brown/white rice.

I like to mix my rice for extra wholesome goodness.  Heat one cup brown rice in some cocunut oil constantly stirring...add 1 1/2 cup water when hot and let cook about 10-15 minutes (can not dry up) add  one cup of the jasmine rice with another 1 1/2 cup water.  Cook down and cover simmer until done.

I make turkey or ground beef patties and a steamed veggie.

Day Two

Take leftover beans and rice, add Chicken broth to it and liquefy.  Pour into soup pot.

Steam one Acorn squash or butternut squash and when cooked, liquefy with some of the hot water in steamer.  Add squash mixture to soup pot.

Brown and mince ground beef or turkey (I prefer taste of ground beef).  Season with salt and cumin or a Jamaican Jerk flavour or Mexian flavoring.  Add to soup mixture (juices and all).  Stir and serve with shredded cheese, sliced avocado, salsa or by itself...SOOOOO delicious! 

The kids LOVE it and ask for more!

Hello again!

Well, journal...it's been awhile since we had a face to face. So much has happened and I wouldn't be able to put it all down - but the learning curve is what's most important.  God teaches us SO much stuff - if we are open to learn it...and I'm sure there are areas that I am closing and I don't want to truly "see" the things that need to change...but I'm getting there!  I still see so much inside of me that needs tweaking...so many areas where I need to "put on my new nature" (Col. 3 - The kids and I are memorizing scriputre - wow - it's been great!  I love that Keziah is getting it too!).

So...key points - Antony went freelance - HUGE step of faith. We have learned so much - about our marriage (we weren't living in sync with each other...seeing daddy as an "intruder" or "interruption" to our lives/ routine...but we saw it needed changing and although it's so hard to change, it's essential for vibrant growth...I can see how people just want to ignore the problem and keep living the way the samw way b/c it's just easier!  Change is so TOUGH to do), about God's graciousness (in our mistakes, He makes things right), trust in Him as our provider, we've enjoyed free time, pool time and a record breaking hot summer. 

Mary Kay - God taught me how to bring Mary Kay and fit it in our family - through it, the children will see first hand the very things we want to instill in them.  What it means to work hard, set goals, plan, organize, think out of the gbox, how to treat people, how to lead people, how to encourage/motivate/inspire people...so excited that they will have it in front of them so they can learn by watching it being done and being a part of it themselves!  Looking forward to all that God has and is doing in and through me.

Kids:  Marc Alec - getting so big - long curly hair...he is so affectionate - kisses us all the time - and when Kezi cries he goes to show her love...does his cute little hop on foot dance.  We are enjoying them all...Jonathon lost another tooth...it is so odd to see him growing before my eyes...I am purposefully taking time to enjoy the small moments...Luke is my vibrant life - keeps me on my toes and makes me laugh in spite of everything!!  Keziah is such a sweet princess...and yet tough and 'tudy at times!

Book Club:  I started a book club with some other moms...we are reading "The Mission of Motherhood" first...and we are enjoying it so much.  Reading it makes me remember more often what it is I am doing in the lives o f my children and how huge it is - and how SPECIAL it is! 

Okay then, I think that brings me up to date.  Until next time!

"Sit down, you're rocking the boat!"

One of me and sister's old classic faves was Guys and Dolls...Handsome Marlon Brando and Frank Sinatra with a voice that would melt you...we loved watching those oldies!  There is a song in there that says, "Sit down, sit down, sit down, sit down, sit down you're rocking the boat"...yes, I had to sing it while I typed so I could make sure there were enough "sit down's" in there.  :)  


Well, in life we really ave to do a Peter and get UP and get OUT of the boat!  I realized the other day, while I was chatting to my hubby, that it's in the boat where things are secure...comfortable...you know what to expect and there are no surprises.  It's nice to sit down and enjoy the view...for a time...but to live in the boat for comforts sake causes us to miss out on what God can do in us and through us!  


Matt. 14
 ²⁵ Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. ²⁶ When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear.


The disciple thought Jesus was a ghost at first.  How many grown men, rough and tough men, squeal like girls and cry "Ghost!" when they are doing their normal routine? When we get comfortable in our boat, we get to the point where God-things look irrational or scary...and we react to them with fear.  


 ²⁷ But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”


Again, Jesus saying not to be afraid...fear stops us from SO much...you tell me an issue you can't get through, I guarantee there's a root of fear somewhere...it debilitates us...stops us from forward movement in our lives.


 ²⁸ “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”
   
Take the time to listen closely...through all the noise in life, when it's Him calling, you will know if you take the time to know His voice.


²⁹ “Come,” he said.


Peter responds with a crazy idea.  Go out on the water!?!  How out of the blue is that!?!  I'm sure in all his years as a fisherman it didn't cross his mind to try it before..it would've been silly...but when Jesus is telling us to do something, you can bet your britches that it will be something you never would have done before and something that will be done entirely dependent upon His grace and through faith!


29 Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus.


Peter put action to his faith.  Faith without works is dead.  


³⁰ But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”


When we take our eyes off Jesus and his promises and look at the circumstances and difficulties, sinking is inevitable...


 ³¹ Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”


Jesus didn't say, "Oh Peter, what's wrong with you?  Why don't you have enough faith?  Oh well, you didn't pass the test, I just can't help you anymore...you'll have to try and swim back to the boat and see if you can save yourself."  Instead, He reached out His hand.  His hand is outstretched...when he died his hands were outstretched and he saved us once and for all, forever making right of our wrongs.  In our failures, His grace makes it right.  We will fail, we will doubt, but if our heart is right, we can receive what He already paid for.


 ³² And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down. ³³ Then those who were in the boat worshiped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.”


Notice that they climbed back in the boat...I doubt Jesus started walking toward the boat, then saved Peter and then decided to swim the rest of the way.  They both walked on the water.  Jesus is with us - walking the path with us, guiding us, never leaving us, helping us in our weakness, making us strong, seeing us through.  And when our test becomes a testimony, it will glorify Jesus - it will cause others to see Him for who He truly is.


Last thing...in the boat, we find comfort and there may be security, but there is no room for anything else...when you get out of the boat and step out in faith, suddenly doors open, opportunities make themselves known...MIRACLES happen.


It's definitely okay to rock the boat!  :)

Embrace the Grace...Squash the Fear!

I've had a revelation today.  It's a biggie.  Because big things are happening.  When I say big, it's the feeling that you get when you think of the magnitude of destiny and when you see another puzzle piece fall into place that will get you there.  It's all a journey, of course.  And today, I've had a huge realization.  I am about to embark on something that I've feared since I was a child.  I have tried and failed more times than I care to recall and I've spent too much money, much to my husband's dismay.  ;)   But there was an innate fear in me that I didn't see for what it was.  Fear and hate truly go together.  I never saw that until this second.  As a child I would say, I hate selling.  I pushed my shy, quiet sister when it came time to do school fundraisers...literally pushed her out the car door and sat watching from the safety of my seat belt.  Fear stopped me from selling those little dollar chocolate bars and the hate was my response to the fear.  I have said it countless times, "I HATE selling!"  But I am now seeing the hate stemmed from the fear and it covered the root issue - the fear - so that I never dealt with it.  And the "hate" of selling masked itself as a good thing - I don't like pressuring people.  Doesn't that sound so thoughtful?  We always turn to the good thins so we can ignore the bad.  I hate such and such and all because I'm thinking of other's feelings!  Yeah, right!  Another realization I'm having as I'm writing...I haven't been thinking of others feelings...I've been thinking of my own.  And it all boils down to fear of failure and fear of rejection.  I have seen now that deep down, my fear has been stopping me from reaching my destiny.

As I am embarking on my new mountain climb, I am being forced to see this.  Now I am able to see the root issue and deal with it.  I have been thinking today on a few things.  So many GREAT and successful people all have one thing in common.  If you hear their story, it always started out with something in their childhood that they hated - for John Bevere it was his writing class.  I've heard other great well-known speakers say they hated speaking in public and had severe fears of doing so.  Yet, the very thing they feared was somehow intertwined with their God-given destiny.  So I was talking to Antony today and it all just came out...the fears that I have that stop me from dreaming and stepping out...and then I said, "Destiny, Fear and Grace are all delicately intertwined."  And it all just became so clear to me.  The enemy will do whatever it takes for us to fail at reaching the greatness we are capable of with Christ on the inside of us.  I believe that as children the seeds of fear that are planted in us are directly related to our purpose and that the enemy will plant that fear to stop you from success.  But God in His infinite mercy has added grace to balance out the equation.  And when we embrace the grace, renew our minds and let His dreams for us become our own, the fear is squashed out and we are able to do things we never thought possible.  If there's an area of life you feel you are not exceeding at, look for a root of fear.  If fear was not a part of me today, then I would be successful today in the area I want to succeed in.  But I am not there, so obviously I have been succumbing to fear.  But no longer.  I see it and now I can submit myself daily in this area, lean on God's grace and strength and see His great plan really take shape.  I am not ignoring the fear, and pretending it does not exist.  But now I have a plan of attack. I see it like an old scale - you know the kind old kind of scales they used long ago for gold?  Well, right now, the fear is heaviest and is having greater control over my destiny than faith is.  But as I embrace the grace of God, everyday, sometimes that may mean many times per day, as I get a vision for what I am doing, as I fill myself up with God's love, renew my mind, and take actions steps everyday (faith without works is dead), I will undermine the power I have given that fear and my faith will begin to take on more mass and take it's rightful spot as the leading weight in my life.

This is a big day...because Fear has been found out and it's going down. ("aaarrrggghhh" face!)   :)

every problem's One solution

This is the busy season for daddy.  He leaves early and comes home late...usually close to midnight.  When his work schedule gets the squeeze, so does mine.  It always reminds me of what a team we make...but that's only after the fact.  Usually during this time, I tend to see only the fact that I am more irritable, fussy, short, etc. with the kids.  My days are longer, the demands are more demanding.  But before the busy-ness started this time around, I listened to that still small voice.  Normally, I tend to get my game face on and tough my way through the task...but it's all in my own strength.  I don't learn anything from the experience.  I mean I don't learn anything where it counts...inside.  But this time, I realized that I'm not taking every opportunity of difficulty to run to God and say, "Lord I submit myself to you.  I need you.  I can't do this on my own.  I want to have a heart change but only you can change my heart if I am open to you doing so.  I want to grow during this time and depend more on you than ever before."  Wow, what a perspective change.  Instead of simply enduring the difficulty, the difficulty is now something that can be used to bring me closer to Him.  I tell the kids "See a problem?  Find a solution."  Well, I need that for myself...I need to remember that any problem I am facing always has only, "The One" solution.

My house or my home...

I was having company over last night...people I'd not met yet.  I wanted everything to be perfect...who doesn't when it comes to certain things?  I began to look at my house through a newcomer's perspective and could easily see it was definitely lacking.  Old sofa covers, stained carpet, walls that are more like murals and a general lack of niceties.  My sweet hubby was helping me catch up on some cleaning so that my day wouldn't be too difficult.  We were talking about the state of the house and I opened up about my insecurity in my house's appearance.  I hate thinking about having people over b/c of the way my house looks, and said as much.  I'd love to have all the nice little trinkets and matching furniture and spotless, spacious rooms.  And as I knelt down cleaning up my little snowman table (yes, we still have our Christmas decorations up...) it occurred to me and I voiced aloud, "You know babe, I would rather them come and leave feeling that maybe it wasn't the fanciest of houses, but that it was a warm home."  And you know what?  They did.  They said it themselves and that was the highlight of my night.  I want a home...not a fancy house with only nice things at the expense of joy, love, peace, laughter and fond memories.  I still look forward to having those nice things, but I definitely feel more at ease in having friends come and enjoy what we have to offer in our home.  Love.